Friday, August 21, 2015

guest post Lisa N Edwards

Changing Your Life

Have you ever been so stuck in a rut that nothing made you happy? You just wanted to change your life and everything about it, but didn't know how? 

Maybe you haven't. Perhaps not everyone goes through a period of feeling that they don't belong or need to find their place in this world. For those that do, the feeling is like being imprisoned. For these people, it takes internal courage and support to overcome those mental fears and live the life they are truly capable of living.

Live the life you are proud of! I hear you saying this is easier said than done. Some of us get stuck with IDEA of who we should be, not who we really are. That was what being an talent agent was for me. My business was people, and people aren't always nice. Some days I felt like I was trying to sell my soul to feel wanted or needed, and I was losing myself in the process.

One step at a time...

If you feel this also sounds like you, take one small step at a time to make changes. Only you know what makes you happy. Maybe join a gym, take up acting classes or try a course at a community centre. Try different things until you discover what makes you, you! Have your own life, and if you do have a partner, at least then you may have more interesting things to talk about. And if you don't, spend the time learning who you are and what makes you tick. Love you first.

Personal Experiences

When I wrote the character Nikki in my book Can't Fight Fate, I drew on a lot of my own feelings and personal experiences. The psychic reading is my actual reading from when I was 21. Nikki is a complex character—she appears to have the world at her feet, with a comfortable life and her partner a doctor. Being an agent, I too appeared to have everything. While everyone said I was crazy to walk away from a life that had given me so much, it was definitely the best thing I have ever done.

When I was selling my agency (which took over two years), sometimes I would believe it would never happen. I became consumed with anxiety; I had to keep the sale secret so talent and clients didn't go to other agencies. I also worried about what the world (and the people around me) would think. It became this search for answers or a way out, and in this, I became a prisoner captive within the walls of my own mind. The voices in my head circled with conflicting thoughts and emotions, always falling back to the psychic reading from when I was 21—the perfect everything! My entire world falling apart, but for some reason HOPE is what kept me going. Hope that I could have everything I wanted.

Anxiety makes you over think everything you do in life. When you find your mind looping, maybe write your thoughts down to release them, or do some intensive cardio exercise. I have found both of these have been very helpful for me, and have helped me shape my life to one I am happy to live. I now jump out of bed in the morning to do something I love.

And as Nikki discovers in Can't Fight Fate,

It is true the only person I can change is me, for so long I've been begging and hoping for change. It is time to start... Time to wake up and smile; time to start treating the most important person in my life with the love and respect I deserve. Time to wake up and smile at that person in the mirror; time to stop blaming everyone else, for what it is that I need to change... Me! 

Stop Blaming

Don't blame your unhappiness on anyone else; you have the power to change your life. It's your life! When you stop blaming the world and everyone else for your choices, you take back the control of who you are and who you want to be. Take back your power of choice, and choose to be someone YOU are proud to be. 

Thursday, June 25, 2015

Daddy Knows best by Normandie Alleman


This book is about bsdm play and some other kinks that were put into it. It really creeped me out and I don't know why on earth I pick it out to read from NetGalley. I just could not get into it I just don't understand the daddy daughter play thing was gross to me. And the fact that he made the chose of her to movie away from her job and home. I get that she was fine with it. Just could not get into this book at all. I'm sorry it was just not for me.
I give this 1 out of 5 stars it was just weird.

Sunday, June 7, 2015

persona 4 Anime

Type: series
25 episodes long

It takes the story from the game of the same name. It a story about teen that are trying to solve a murder case that start with a one death and leads to about 9 people who have been kidnapped and 4 death over the story. You meet 7 people as you watch the show that join the group trying to solve the murder case. Each one of these people who join the group have a fun story with a twist as the group saves them.

I played the game first before watching it. I enjoyed the game more but the anime save about 50 hours of time so. The story is good and I wound give it a 4 out of 5 but that just because I like the game  better them then the anime.

Friday, May 29, 2015


This read-a-thon is going to June 4-9. Hosted by Good Tales this is there first read-a-thon if you want to join here is the link. so check it out if you wound like to join us. 

My TBR for this will be 4 books 

1.12637458 Sapphire Blue by Kerstin Gire

2. 12988074 The Unnaturalist by Tiffany Trent

3.21262876 Widow Walk by Gerard Lasalle

4. 22584482 Black Heart's Legacy by Sally Copus

I hope to read all of these book over that time and maybe more if I get in the mood to read more but that is my planed TBR.


This week I have had a bad cold and have been moving so I was unable to to post. I will be back to normal on Monday with a new post. Thank you. Have a nice weekend and keep reading.

Thursday, May 21, 2015

A broken Kind of Beautiful by Katie Ganshert


A story about a fashion model who has just lost her father and is about to lose her job as well. But her stepmother asked her to do a wedding dress photo shot for her new line of wedding dresses. Ivy really dose not want to do it but  in the end she dose. And meeting Daves and his sister help her find a part of her self that had been missing. I really enjoyed this book once I sat down and read it. I wound give it a 4 out of 5 stars. It a lovely book.

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

5 Centimeters per Second

Anime Movie
Time: 62 min.

This is a story about a boy and a girl starting when they are about 13 and have there first kiss up to the time when they have grown a part and are living there lives about 10 years later or so. In three parts.

Part 1
It tell the heart reaching story of a long train ride on a snowy night of a 13 year old by to see is best friend a 13 year old girl. Many thing happen and they have there first kiss.

Part 2
Is about a girl who has a crush on the boy  but never has the gusts to tell him how she feels.

Part three
Is about the boy and how is life sucks. And the girl who life is going well. And how there paths may have been there the whole time but then they were never to be more then just friends.

Over all it was good but it left me hanging. I give this 3 out of 5. It nice and sweet.

Monday, May 18, 2015

His Blushing Bride by Dani Collins


Montana Born Brides Book 2 I read the first book in this companion series. This one was vary good as well but this story was more about sex then story which is fine but I wish it went more in to Pipers life without  Sebastian as well as with him. But over all it was good some part made me feel sad because of the chose Piper made to be with him but in the end it was happy so it works out vary well. I  hope to read the rest of this book series because so far I am really enjoying it. 
I wound give this a 3 out of 5 it a good read and if you like love stories then you will most likely enjoy this one. 

The Reason: How I Discovered a Life Worth Living By Lacey Sturm


This book was something I had wanted so bad that I looked for it for about 2 months at a local book store before I had amazon. The day it came in I read it in one day and loved it. I loved her music and so knowing her story dose help me love it even more.

At some part this book was predictable about how she found god at the right time but it dose make you think how many times has a preacher heard the voice of God and just  keped on with there sermon and did not help the person who needed the most. Other parts of the book I can under stand better were she can just feel so much when she felt God inside her that it was painful for her and made her feel so much. I know how she feels about that is hurts and a lot of people treat me as someone who is a freak because of what I feel. This book helped me and in some ways told me that I'm not the only person that feels God in this way and that some  what make me feel at peace with my self. And for me that is a really a wonderful thing.

I wound give this book a 4 out of 5  because it is a book that made me feel a lot of thing and think a lot about my self and my faith in god and gods people even more then I did before. And help me not be angry anymore.

Friday, May 15, 2015

Stone Prison by H.M. Ward


I won this in a goodread giveaway over a year or so ago. I just never thought about it an tell I found it and just read it. It a Cinderella story that just a little sad and really creepy. If you like horror storys and fairy tales look this one up I don't want to spoil anything because it a short story. So look it up for your self it like 50 pages and I really enjoyed it.

I give this 4- 4.5 out of 5 I loved this story but the ending left me a little creeped out but it is vary good.

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Entwined (The Erotic Adventures of Jane in the Jungle #1) by Colette Gale

Entwined (The Erotic Adventures of Jane in the Jungle, #1)

It a start to a story but I wish there was more to this story it seams like I just read the first 2 chapters to a book and a book. I don't like how this author  is putting this book out in parts. If it was put in to a full book with all the parts I wound buy it but I don't want to spend $2.99 for the next 2 chapters every time I finish it. I enjoyed the story of Jane and the start of her trip in the Jungle will she find the Man she loves or just a jungle man who make her feel really good or the man who want to make her his. I might buy the other 5 part of this because I do like the story but I don't know yet. I was good for a erotica but that all it really was.

I wound give it 2 out of 5. I was good but any less you want to re-buy a book every 2 chapters I  wound pass on it if I were you.

Saturday, May 9, 2015

Isabella and the Beast by Audrey Grace


This book was just creepy and wrong to me. I need you to brake the cures on me by having my baby it beast tag line. I'm sorry but the idea of having sex with an animal just creeps me out. He not a overly hair man which can be really sexy for some people. He is a beast that  has fangs and paws it just gross I'm sorry but that like having sex with a dog. I'm just not into this book. Also what ever happens to her looking for her father and trying to get home. It like a bad porno were the plot leaves and your left with sex boring give me plot if it can have sex then ya! if not at lest you have a story with out people going were did the story go I'm left with is sex. Beast tag line at the end Oh by the way your pregnant.

I give this 1 out of 5 the story left and if your going to retell a story with sex have it make since even if it gross if it make since I wound have like the story more then this.

Friday, May 8, 2015

Evernight by Claudia Gray


This is about vampire, teens, and high school. Like so many other books out there. I love books about vampire, demon, and others thing that go bump in the night. This was a quick read and really did not even have that much magic or vampires and tell Bianca dose something that makes the other vampires laugh at her and the vampire hunter know that she is just like the others at the school. It a love story and a coming of age story for Bianca trying to find herself because most of the time she dosen't really fit in to this world of Vampire who come to this school to lean about this new world some done even know how to use a cell phone or even a microwave. And this school is a safe place they can come and learn how to live in this world now. 

I want to know what happens next when a vampire is in love with a vampire hunter so I need to read stargazer.  I give this book a 3 out of 5 it was good an I will read the next book but it so much like other books that are out there if you love vampire YA pick it up but if you not in to then you can pass. 

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Cinderella Had it Easy (The Cinderella Body Club #1) by Jennifer Conner


A book about a smart women who is all ready pretty wishing to be prettier and landing a guy. Then thinking he only likes her for her looks when he want her for her brain. It was vary boring and just made me want to gag my self. It just sucked there is nothing about it that I liked. Reading the book even the cover is stupid because  it was a cameo locket that grated her wish not some glass slipper. I will not be reading any more of this it a just bad.

I give it 1 star out of 5. I hate giving review like this but this was bad I know it an arc but how was this even let out like this I don'r know any one who wound want to read something like this.

My Neighbor Totoro

Anime Type: Movie
Time: 86 mins.

This is a classic Studio Ghibli movie that a lot of people have seen all ready because it was made in 1988. I did enjoy this movie but I think if I was younger between 4-7 years old I wound have loved it. Because the first time I watched this I was 21 years old it just was to simple for me.  it cute but there is not much to it. It about a father and his two daughter move to a new house and start there life there. Visiting there mother at the hospital and having fun with the forest sprite or troll Totoro. It a cute story I think little kids and adults would really enjoy this.

I give this a 4 out of 5 this is just not what I like it too young for me but I have a brother who has 3 kids I think I know what I might get them as a gift some time. This is cute and sweet and something everyone should watch at lest once. It a classic.

The Fairy Tale Bride by Scarlet Wilson

A sweet story of two people who have had lives that just did not go there way. Lisa lost the man she loved to her sister and Adam was just know for his money. She has started her life over with her bridal shop and he a new doctor in town. All her secrets come out but it works out in the end. I enjoyed this sweet story.

I wound give it a 3 out of 5 it was sweet and something nice to read. I will read more from this writer it good but nothing life changing.

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

Wicked Wants by Cayla Kluver


This is a fun book were you chose what path Elizabeth goes down will she be the good girl and do what her father want will she or will she be with the man she has loved for many years. The story is short. It a fun idea and it make the book re readable but it a niche market book so it will work for some and not others. For me it was ok.

I give this book 3 out of 5 stars. I fun but just not for me.

Monday, May 4, 2015

By Light Betrayed - Poetry of the Vampires by Sherry Rentschler


A book of poetry with a vampire twist. It was a quick fun read that if you like vampires and poetry then you might like it. There not much to say because it was short and nothing ready stuck in my head.
I give this 3 out of 5 it good but nothing really stuck in my head. Thank you sharry Rentschler and goodreads for my free copy.

Cynders & Ashe by Elizabeth Boyle


I loved the cover when I first pick this book up on amazon but reading the story it all wrong because she dressed like a fairy in a green silk dress not this blue stuff. Over all it a lot like Cinderella rich guy fall for a women who has nothing at a ball. And then they find each other again. It a love story it nice and sweet.

I give it 4 out of 5 because I love stories like this that are quick to read and are nice.

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Romeo x Juliet anime review

Romeo x Juliet anime.

Time: 24 esp.

This is a retelling of Romeo and Juliet by William Shakespeare. But I think give both charters a little more to them. Juliet family is killed by Romeo father and so she has to go by the name Odin for her to be able to live. But she a bit of a rebel were they want to her be quite and live her life she want to help the people the best she can. And that is how Romeo finds her one day she had broken the law again and he saves her. As the story goes on they fall in love and well the ending is weird. I wound give it a watch if you like the story of Romeo and Juliet, Romance, or even action because there a lot of that as well.

This is one of my favor all time anime. And I wound give 4.5 out of 5 because of the ending it really did not make since with the rest of the story.

Chiro the star Project Vol. 1 by HyeKyung Baek

I don't like it the charters are to in to them self's and I don't think it will get much better then what I read. I though I wound like this one to but some time you don't get what you like. I know it just one volume into the story but if I don't like it now I don't think 2 to 3 volumes down  the road it will be better.

I'm sorry the story bord me so I give this 1 star out of 5 I just didn't like it.

Sweet Blood, Volume #1 by Seyoung Kim


Type: Yaoi (guy in love with guy)

This volume one of this manga so there is not much story yet. There is a boy who family kicked him out and he trying to live on his own and he start getting weird bit on his arms and neck. He also having weird dream about a man with really long black hair. As the story go on he is taken away by the vampire Lord who thinks he a women. At this point there not much to say it the start of something. I don't hate it but I don't love it I need to read more of it to see if I wound like as of right not  I give it 3 out of 5 stars. It ok but it the start of a story so I don't know yet.

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

The Ballet Lover's Companion by Zoe Anderson


This was the first book I readed about Ballet and the first non fiction book I have readed all the way though.

This book is not for people like me who don't know much about ballets because at the start of this book they give out names and shows that I have no idea of and I almost give up about 14 pages in. That my guess is that you need to have a back history of before hand because I didn't know anything really going in. Also with the word that  give you info photo wound have been good for them just so you can get a better idea of the terms you are given just so you can get a better idea of it. But the book did get better for me at I pushed thought the history it started to make since and I enjoyed it. I'm really enjoying the stories that are told in the ballets. And reading about who it has changed for it start in Italy in the courts of royals, French ballet school, and then Russia made it what it is today.

I wound give this book 3 stars out of 5. I was good but I don't really read non fiction. If you like ballet or reading about the history  of anything. Thank you Yale University Press, Zoe Anderson, and NetGalley for letting me read this early it was a nice change of pace for me to read something like this but it was fun.

goodreads won post #2

It a book of vampire poetry and I though it wound be something fun to read. I will be reading this and putting a review up soon but there are a few books in my TBR that I need to get to first.

The Wallflower anime revew

Anime type: series
Time: 25 esp

This is a lot like Ouran Host Club. If there was a creepy girl who love horror and death. And seams to hate everyone because they are beautiful creatures of light and everytime she looks at them she has a bloody nose. Over time she starts to find that she like then and becomes good friends with them. The guys on the other hand had a plan to get free rent if they can make the creepy girl into a lady. It a fun anime that is weird but one that I loved a lot.

I loved this I give this 5 out of 5 for it funny, creepy, and just plan weird at some parts. There are some BSDM comment though out but over all it was good.

Tuesday, April 28, 2015

books I have won from Goodreads post # 1

The China Mirage: the hidden history of American Disaster in Asia.

I plan to review this in June or July at the lasts. It going to take me a long time because I think is a history book. I think this will be good for me to try something that not Romance or fantasy. I love reading everything to this will be me getting out my normal reading into something different so this should be fun. 

It about china and it starts in 1850's and goes though World War 2. I don't know much about that. So I get to learn as I read.

Monday, April 27, 2015

The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty by A.N. Roquelaure 18 + book it is not for kids not at all


This might be called sleeping beauty but this is not the sweet child story we all grew to love. If you do not like book that have sex, torture, or just make you feel as if you have just read something gross this is not the book for you. I have grown up reading Anne Rice's other works and because I love her work I trust her as an another that even these book will be good is a weird way.

It just weird and hurts my brain in parts. other part have me just closing the book in shock from the graphic sex/ torture in it. Yet other part have me hoping with the next page turn it will it get any better for Beauty because in her new life. In this world if you do what they want then  you will be treated like some type of pet and if you don't do what they want your beat the hell out of you and well that is if you are lucky. This is not a happy place of Beauty or an of the other princess and prince given to these people to take care of but I guess they need to learn that if you are royal then you need to know what it is to be the lowest of the low.

 I was in tears having to stop reading it because I could not handle it and at other part just what the fuck just happened having to reread parts of to even try to understand it. over all it was well I can't say good but it was mind opening book to well a creepy, sexual pain, and pleasure. Sometimes beautiful in a way once your mind is in this world you can see that the some charters do care about beauty and the other slaves. Other time just have me almost gagging or giving up on this all together. I do plan to read the next book. I want to understand this world better and see how it will change Beauty for the better or worse.

I give this book 2.5 out of 5. The story at part was vary hard for me to wrap my head around and some of the since for me just make me cry out of shock. All I have to say is nothing like starting out a book with a rape seen not. I love Anne Rice's other work. I also now under stand why my mother told me i wound have to be 18 to get my hands on this book.

I need to read the next two books in this set because the forth book just came out 4/21/15 and I want to get it I hope that beauty story get better in the later books.

No Gentleman for Georgina by Jess Michaels

No Gentleman for Georgina (The Notorious Flynns,  #4)

It a love story about a women and a man who love each other but don't think the other loves them. Then they find out that they do love each other. It was good over all. Thank you NetGalley for letting me read this early it was short and sweet. If you like romance then give it a try.

I give this book 3 out of 5 stars I love romance and it was short I read it in like a hour and half. I'm sorry I don't have much to say about but it was only 71 pages so I don't want to spoil anything.

This come out May/ 12/15

Saturday, April 25, 2015

The Zeuorian Awakening by Cindy Zablockis

The Zeuorian Awakening (The Zeuorian, #1)

Thank you Netgally and the another of this book for letting me read this Cindy Zablockis. 
It was a little to teen for me. She was to worryed about her self and the hot guy and him telling the world everything about her. I just cound not get into it for some reason. I loved the cover but over all the book was just not for me. I love YA and it just was a miss for me. 

I give this a 2 out of 5. Good cover but it was just a miss for me. 

Friday, April 24, 2015

Chocolate Kisses by Judith Arnold

it was a fun quick read. some parts of it were slow and then ending was just sweet and silly. but then it fantasy love so what ever it was ok it say the lest. The rich guy falls in love with the women doing all the cooking because she makes the best chocolate kisses and over this story she has to cook this meal for his family three times and by the end they have fallen in love and at lest part of his family have started to like her. 

This story was about 75 pages long. I wound give it 3 out of 5 stars I really enjoyed it and think if you like the happy lovely stuff then give it a try.